Wednesday, July 28, 2010

It Was A Year Ago Today...

Last year someone came back in my life and made an impression on my heart.

It was exactly a year ago...

I updated my Facebook status with lyrics to a song. I was in my car...far from home...when I checked my Facebook...and there was a comment from him. He is the boy I grew up with. Went to high school with. Had very limited interaction with. Saw at the high school reunion and did a brief catch up with. He was my Facebook friend...let's call him RJ.

RJ comments on my status. I comment back. He comments once again. I comment back. RJ emails me privately asking what's going on...he can tell something is askew. I tell him I'm getting separated. He's in the same boat. By the end of the day, I learn he lives 3007 miles away from me, but will be visiting our city soon. I propose a group dinner. He proposes a date. I accept.

From that day on...a year ago from today...we talked, Facebooked, chatted, texted, Skyped. He became a part of my life...an important part. By the time he finally came to town we both knew we were in big trouble. This was not just a friendship...this was so much more.

Trips back and forth, thoughts and dreams shared, we did the best we could with distance being our obstacle.

Of course, as they say, all good things come to an end. In time, our relationship ran its course. It ended. Not because we wanted it to, but because, as we all know, a long distance relationship never really works.

So, today, a year later, I reflect on this person. Through laughter and tears, through smiles and frowns, through happiness and sadness, through joy and anger, through frustration and emotions, I am thankful...grateful..for what we had. The love, the support, the friendship will always stay with me.

RJ is what I needed at a time in my life...what we both needed.

Thank you RJ...thank you for making a footprint on my heart that will always remain.

Simply,

Emmy Lane...xx

Love the Way You Lie...

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

~Eminem & Rihanna
Love the Way You Lie


Girl meets boy. Girl and boy fall hard. Boy's actions speaks louder than his words. Boy picks someone else. Girl walks away with a broken heart.

The broken heart...it's a powerful thing.

It can make one crawl under the sea of covers and never want to get out. It can hit your core and make you look at everything differently. It can make you angry and sad and hurt and mad. It can make one question their own ability to trust. It can make you wonder how someone so smart can let something like this happen. It can make one question everything...the who's, the what's, the where's, the why's, the when's, the how's.

But then one day...one simple morning...you wake up and it doesn't hurt as much anymore. The sun is still shining. The breeze sways the trees right outside your window. A smile creeps across your face and you realize it's time to go back to being yourself.

Life is a bunch of learning experiences and this is just one of them...

Fuck ya...I'm back.

Simply,

Emmy Lane...xx